“they ask me what i do and who i do it for…”
on late nights like these, during stressful times at work, crossfit, and school, whenever i feel burned out and weak, and for all the occasions that i just want to give up and stop fighting…
i remember that i’m only a year and a half away from my RN.
seems like a far distance, but time goes by quickly.
there will be much suffering, stress, and sacrifice to come,
but i want to be a college graduate, i want to graduate from the school i should have gone to straight out of high school, i want to finally be an RN.
this semester has been my toughest yet, but i’m only 3 weeks away from summer vacation. i remember why i’m at the mount and i soldier on.
i love crossfit. i still have a lot to work on and improve upon, but i am stronger than i was before it. doing it has become one of the best decisions of my life, and while consistency has been my biggest issue, i still come back because every session counts. every workout counts, every minute of it. the past 4 months have been the most productive time of my membership at crossfit riot, and i will continue to keep doing work because i want to be stronger, i want to be more fit, and i want to express the graces of crossfit more fully in the other parts of my life. laziness and doubt will always be around as obstacles, but i only grow more certain that crossfit is for me.
i work because i love what i do. no matter how annoying patients and their families can get, no matter how long i take doing something, or how dirty or uncomfortable things get, i love being a nurse. i remember my life before nursing, and how i’m living, no matter how imperfect, stressful, or exhausting, is so much better than my past. when i work as a nurse, i not only express my education, skills, and experience…i display the sacrifices and love of my parents, and i show the worth of my soul and the meaning of my life with everything i do as a nurse. being a nurse is a gift from God, and i will not let it go to waste.
and so i hold on to my stethoscope, put on my backpack, and wear my workout shoes…because i will not quit, i will not stop, and i will continue to win.
boom - jl